Pray Love and Let Go...

Life has a way of slowing me down so I could take the time and opportunity to look at how I handle my life experiences. Lately my close friends and members of my family are going through some trying times.

It is heartbreaking to witness people that I love going through difficult challenges. What I’m learning in my mid life adventure, is what my part is and what I do with it, that’s what really counts.

A reality check. Is it happening to me? No. Physically? No. I feel sad for them. Is it affecting me? Yes.

My goal is to handle it with compassion and love but I know from my past experiences, I can relish my sufferings so much that it could balloon to enormous proportions; re-living and telling the story, out loud and in my head. It was difficult to wean away from martyrdom until I discovered the joys and serenity when I let go of what I didn’t have control over and my life becomes more manageable when I did. 

I am learning how to live and let live.

There was a time when I didn’t know how to be good to myself.

Very little that happens in my life is worth my worry and feeling-in-control to force a solution, basically just doing it my way. It’s a temporary fix so I won’t have to feel their pain but I am selling myself short and my serenity very cheap.

When the dust settles, I saw how hard I fought to learn this lesson. I was unhappy when I put myself in the middle of the turmoil, thinking how I can fix it. This uncomfortable feeling I didn’t want to feel, the fear of what could happen, and facing my own insecurities of fear, loss and being alone.  

I was brought to a place of joy when I came to a place of acceptance. I feel love in a deeper level, working through any fear and realizing that I can find no serenity until I accept it as being exactly the way it is suppose to at this moment.

What I can do…

Pray, love and let go.

• I can pray for their comfort and guidance.
• I can show my warmth, love and compassion.
• I can let go and give them the dignity to let them figure out the best solution for them. Let go and let God.

A powerful way out of turmoil by creating a place of calmness to gather my thoughts to know the best way to handle anything that life brings my way.