Life has a way of slowing me down so I could
take the time and opportunity to look at how I handle my life experiences. Lately
my close friends and members of my family are going through some trying times.
It is heartbreaking to witness people that I
love going through difficult challenges. What I’m learning in my mid life adventure, is what my part is and what I do with it, that’s what really counts.
A reality check. Is it happening to me? No.
Physically? No. I feel sad for them. Is it affecting me? Yes.
My goal is to handle it with compassion and love
but I know from my past experiences, I can relish my sufferings so much that it
could balloon to enormous proportions; re-living and telling the story, out
loud and in my head. It was difficult to wean away from martyrdom until I
discovered the joys and serenity when I let go of what I didn’t have control
over and my life becomes more manageable when I did.
I am learning how to live and let live.
There was a time when I didn’t know how to be
good to myself.
Very little that happens in my life is worth my
worry and feeling-in-control to force a solution, basically just doing it my
way. It’s a temporary fix so I won’t have to feel their pain but I am selling
myself short and my serenity very cheap.
When the dust settles, I saw how hard I fought
to learn this lesson. I was unhappy when I put myself in the middle of the
turmoil, thinking how I can fix it. This uncomfortable feeling I didn’t want to
feel, the fear of what could happen, and facing my own insecurities of fear,
loss and being alone.
I was brought to a place of joy when I came to a
place of acceptance. I feel love in a deeper level, working through any fear
and realizing that I can find no serenity until I accept it as being exactly
the way it is suppose to at this moment.
What I can do…
Pray, love and let go.
- I can pray for their comfort and guidance.
- I can
show my warmth, love and compassion.
- I can
let go and give them the dignity to let them figure out the best solution
for them. Let go and let God.
A powerful way out of turmoil by creating a
place of calmness to gather my thoughts to know the best way to handle anything
that life brings my way.
